It Is Feb 6, 2026

Things have changed so much in my life, and sometimes it still feels unreal. I had my fourth baby, and the very next day I had my tubes removed. My body is still healing, and I can feel it every day. I get faint, sharp pains where they cut me open that come and go without warning. My back hurts if I move the wrong way, but slowly, day by day, it’s starting to improve. Even through the pain and exhaustion, I feel incredibly grateful that I get to be home and truly present, watching my children grow right in front of my eyes. Those moments mean more to me than anything.

At the same time, my heart feels heavy knowing I won’t have any more children. Letting go of that part of my life is harder than I expected, and it comes with a quiet sadness that lingers. Still, there’s also peace in knowing my body won’t have to go through more pregnancies or health struggles. I’m learning how to hold both feelings at once — the grief and the relief. As I look ahead, I feel a mix of fear and hope about the future. I don’t know exactly how this year will turn out, but I’m excited to learn, to grow, and to try building my own business from nothing. I know I’m capable of so much, but I also know I have to believe in myself enough to start and be strong enough to keep going. I want to create something meaningful, not just to make money, but to build a better future for myself and my children.